Trapped inside of my mind, waiting to find a way out that will still leave me with my sanity.
So, I took three classes for the Spring semester coming up. Algebra, Government, and one Physical Education bullshit class because those were the last three I needed to graduate with my Associates in May. I was so excited to finish, and when I paid for the classes yesterday, the front desk told me I had $680 left over to pay for books, which was more than enough I assumed. However, when I got home and tried to order my books, it only said I had $18 in my account. The reason being I just found out, is because the physical education course I am taking only counts for two credit hours, and the other two courses are three making a total of eight hours for the semester. I need nine credit hours to receive my full grant from the school. So now I have to sign up for a fourth class for next semester. I didn’t even want to take three, because I am fixing to start working full time in January. Now I am going to be working a Monday through Saturday job while trying to juggle four classes just to graduate on time. On top of that, I hate Government because I don’t pay attention to what’s going on in this fucked up country, and College Algebra!? HA! I’ll be lucky if I fucking pass. I am definitely going to need a tutor for that. I’ve been avoiding the course since I began college.
Also, the price for the three books was almost five hundred dollars. If I sign up for the fourth class, I will in fact have $680 left, but that is BEFORE I pay for the new class I am signing up for. At the end of that, I’ll probably have one hundred and some dollars left over for four books. Yeah, forget about that. I suppose I’ll just have to look the books up on Chegg and rent them on my mom’s credit card then pay her back as soon as I start making good money. I have so much shit to pay off at this point. I am stressed to my breaking point, and it’s giving me so much fucking anxiety to the point where it makes me think it isn’t worth it all. Then again, if I quit school, people will rub it in saying they knew I wouldn’t finish. However, if I stay at my part time job I currently have which I love and turn down the full time job I may get, then I will just be broke all the time trying to pay off what I owe for my truck, insurance, gas, and my phone bill. Yeah, not going to work. Fuck man, something for once just needs to go right. I don’t get how the shittiest people in the world get everything they want, and the ones who work hard get the short end of the stick every time. I guess that’s just our world.
Grandma: I want barbeque for lunch. Let's get some chopped sandwiches. I have chips and stuff at home.
Me: Alright, sounds good.
Drive-Thru lady person: Alright, that'll be $12.65, are you sure you don't want to add chips and a drink for just $6.50 more?
Grandma: No thank you.
*Drive-Thru lady person closes window*
Me: Jesus Christ twelve bucks for just the sandwiches? This better be some grade-A beef, Grandma. I better find out that these cows were raised by Obama since birth.
I just got my drivers permit.
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